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Desert of Dreams Series · Book 4 · Nicole’s story

Allow in Light

Letting in light may mean facing darkness you tried to hide.

Book four in the Desert of Dreams Series—standalone stories of friends in a small desert town (1980s–’90s) discovering resilience, courage, and hope.

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About the Book

Hurt others before they hurt you: Nicole’s rule for surviving a world that expects her to be perfect.

With striking beauty and a sharp sense of style, Nicole could grace the covers of teen magazines. Instead, she leaves a trail of broken hearts in her wake—every boy who falls for her quickly learns not to.

Her father’s failures in business and marriage have stripped the family of luxury, forcing them to settle in Lake Los Angeles—a desert town of cheap housing and tumbleweeds. Beaten down by a father who sees her femininity as a flaw and a mother who sacrificed her own dreams, Nicole hides behind emotional detachment.

But when a spark for science ignites within her, her father shames it into silence, pushing her instead toward a future in finance—the practical path he believes will keep her safe. Torn between the life expected of her and the dreams she secretly longs for, Nicole pushes people away, even the girls determined to break through her defenses and become her friends.

As she struggles to balance ambition, friendship, and growing feelings for someone who refuses to let her stay closed off, Nicole must decide: will she let fear rule her, or will she allow in light—and love—to guide her toward the life she was meant to live?

Praise for Allow in Light

“plot is engaging, characters realistic and compelling [with] thought-provoking moments of realization that will encourage many… to address and overcome the desire to love and be loved in unhealthy ways.”

— D. Donovan, Senior Reviewer, Midwest Book Review

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Book Details

Publisher: Adamo Press

BISAC Codes

  • YAF011000 YOUNG ADULT FICTION / Coming of Age
  • YAF022000 YOUNG ADULT FICTION / Girls & Women
  • TBD
Content Note

Books in the Desert of Dreams Series address sensitive but important topics, including bullying and peer pressure; homophobia; troubled family, friendship, and romantic relationships; divorce; religion; racism and classism; historical events of the late 1980s and 1990s; death; neglect and abuse; trauma; drugs, alcohol, and sex; teen pregnancy; abortion; and mental illness, including depression, suicidal ideation, PTSD, and anxiety.

If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health or is in crisis, please reach out for help. In the U.S., call or text 988 to reach the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline.

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